Thursday, October 11, 2012

I can feel change happening

It's true. 

A lot has changed over the past month, on the inside and outside (of me). 

And with change, comes reflection. Reflection on the past. 

As most of my friends know, Genesis and I attend an awesome Baptist church in our local area. I was raised and baptized in my home church, Highland Brethren Church, in my hometown of Marianna, PA. I've yet to find another Brethren Church near by to call home. There is one in downtown DC and i did go once. There's also one in Winchester VA but that's pretty far to travel once a week. We also want to be able to attend groups and volunteer throughout the year. We continued our search after we moved to Stafford, VA and we hit the jackpot! We found Victory Baptist Church in Stafford, VA and we love it. We have an awesome church family. The folks are awesome, down to earth, modern, yet close knit, and very very welcoming. 

Church has become a large part of our lives and because of that my outlook has changed for the better. I'm not as bitter about my past and my mistakes, and I don't sound like the sailor I used to. Yes, I slip up every once in a while but I don't sound like I'm sitting in a bar ALL the time.  (yeah!)

I have an improved, more positive outlook on life, for people, and I think I have a nicer personality (i have no idea how to say i do not have a potty mouth any more) all around. It's true - surrounding yourself w/ positive people DOES have an affect on you. 
It also helps that I have "deleted" a few folks in my life who were consistently negative. Foul mouthed, angry, people. 

I feel great! 

Those were the "inside" changes. The "outside" changes were amazing as well. I had weight loss surgery 3 weeks ago. The second kid wreaked some major havoc on me!! In addition to that, I inherited some awesome "fat genes" from past family members. It's been a rough few years. As most of my friends know, Jenn is/was skinny. Getting older and packing on pounds as well as some other minor health issues was insane. It felt as if someone else had taken up residence inside me. Clothes were tight, I felt and looked swelled at all times, and just didn't feel right for a few years! I drank more, overcompensated for A LOT, and basically tried to make sense of what was happening to me. At the beginning of of 2012 I decided enough was enough, I needed to see a Dr. 

1 - I got a divorce (not my first one either)
2 - I switched companies (i've worked for the same contracting company for 10 years since leaving the Air Force)
3 - I cut my hair
4 - I mended a few relationships w/in my immediate family
5 - I started to pay attention to ME and what I need/want
6 - I had weight loss surgery (WLS) in Sep 2012 - already down 25 pounds!

Major changes inside and out!  

I'm a nicer person, I feel good, I'm proud of myself, proud of my girls! 

Good things happen to good people.. and I want to be good people. 

I pray for positive people to come into our lives and I hope I can bring goodness to others as well. 


1 comment:

  1. Dear Jenn,

    i'm happy for you. i can say this is the first i have visited your blog. you are truly a strong, beautiful and wonderful woman and mother. although, i have to say, i think you should keep just a small part of the "old Jenn" as she made me laugh on more than one occasion. your past and various experiences have built your character and i do hope you never lose that part of you. yes, to grow is to change, but we always need our roots!! you've weeded your garden and are growing towards the light. i'm happy for you and i hope we can hang out with the girls and chill. take care girly!!